A year ago today...

I found out I was pregnant.

Before I get wrapped up in my busy day ( alas, busy week/month) I wanted to take a moment and just reflect. A year ago this evening I took that test, saw the double line and fell to the floor of my bathroom in tears, crying I was so thankful I was pregnant. John was not home from work yet. We had agreed not to take the test until Tuesday morning. But we had strong indicators that I was pregnant ( same signs in my breasts that I had during the first pregnancy, nausea during a car trip on the day after Thanksgiving with my folks, spotting) and I spent all day at work that day thinking about it. I couldnt wait. I stopped off at Publix on the way home and bought a test. I went home and took it. I didnt expect to see a result. I really thought it would be too early. It wasnt.

I ran downstairs and hugged and kissed Sammie- twirling her around and telling her she was going to be a big-sister. I texted John to "come home quickly". I didnt want to call him because I knew if he heard my voice he'd know. When he got the text he thought it was bad news. He said he knew I couldnt wait and took the test and it was prob negative and I was prob in tears. He said he steeled himself for that - instead he got me greeting him at the top of stairs with the pee-stick in my hand - jumping up and down.

We called my parents. Then we waited.

We had many milestones to go through before we could tell the world -- the doc appt, the blood test/hormone levels, the 6 wk ultrasound to hear a heartbeat, the 8 week visit, the end of the first trimester. All of those milestones were sweet torture -- it was tough going through them and being nervous, but we got through them and the baby kept growing and growing and we then had new milestones -- finding out the sex, the baby classes, the 3D ultrasound, making the baby room, the awesome baby showers and then, the big, wonderful day our little blessing came into our lives.

Now we can hardly imagine a life without him. I can barely remember what life was like a year ago from right now when we didnt even know we were expecting this brilliant, wonderful little soul into our family. And now he's here and our lives are richer and full of love and laughter forever more.